I am 15 years old.
Here is what I'm thanking God for:
Well my mother pasted away on the 26th of March 1999,she battled with cancer. When my mother pasted away I put a lot on board of my self. Now I would like to tell you a bit about my mother before she pasted away. My mother wasn't the best mum she was an alcoholic she drunk all the time. Ever since I was a born. I can remember when my mum would hide the bottles of wine and she would tell me "if I didn't tell my dad I would get something at the shops." Me being a little girl I wanted to get a toy from the shop. As I was getting older mym mums tricks didn't work anymore. I started to get really mad at my mum that's when the hitting swaring and even worst things came in. I can remember when I did something wrong I would go and hide in fear that my mum was going to hurt me.
My mum never showed me love at all she never huged me she never told me that she loved me. As this was going on I never told my dd what my mother did to me I was so scared that he when he went to work she would do something to me like through me to a wall. The first time I talkied about it was when she died then I new that I was safe. But there was also good times the best time I can remember was when I was a little girl I went food shopping with my mum and only with her I thought that mum was all mine and no one elses. As I was growing up I thought that this was normal that all the oldest get hit by there mums. I only found out at the begging of last year that that was very wrong.
I can remember the first time my mum told me that she had cancer she told me to always be upset and don't be happy when I die and that's what I've been doing up till now. At youth camp I went there because I wanted a change of my whole life the first night nothing happened the day nothing happened. But the last night I was really praying for a change and I praying for a change and I prayed to god I seid "god this is the last night I'm staying here till you change me." Then kirsty (the youth leaders wife) seid if there's anything that's holding you back from your walk with god come out the frount at first I sead no "that's not for me." So I went to the loo and as I was in there I was thinking wait a min I have things that are holding me back from my walk with god. So I decied to go back and get prayed for well I didn't even get prayed for and god was working through me I just started crying boy I didn't now I could cry so loud. I was trying to stop crying so loud but I couldn't. Ten I got prayed for as I was getting prayed for I could feel the enorting all over me I was shakeing it felt like god wanted to give me the bigest hug ever.
God really did change me at this camp. Before I would always look to see who was watching me worship the lord but now I don't care at all what anyone thinks I even now neal down to god. I'm not a strong prayer I would usely just pray for 5 mins a day and read the bible because I had to but ever since that last night I just can't stop praysing god because he is the best. God gave me a real big joy at this camp. Before I was like concreat with lots of rocks in it but now I'm still concreat but I'm nice and smove and new. There's a song I now and some of the words really touched my life they are There's one more mountain to clime and there's one more river to cross. I'm on the mountain and I've reached the top and boy I'm staying here because now I do walk every day with jesus. Guest what I never told my mum I loved her to but I really pray that she nows because I got this card before she pasted away and on it it says If I could gather up all the smiles, laughs, memories and pride that you've brought me through the years and give them back to you I would. Maybe that way you'd under stand just what it means to have a daughter like you... and why you're one of the most important things in the world to me. I'm so happy that my mum gave this card to me because now I do now that she loves me and hows do you think I would have felt going thought life nowing that my mum never loved me.
There's a scripter that has really touched my life it is Isaiah 40v29-31: The lord gives strength to those who are weary. Even young people get tired, then stumble and full. But those who trust the Lord will find new strength. They will be strong like eagles soaring up words on wings; they will walk and run with out getting tired. This tesimony is for those who have had hard things happened in there lives. But if you have the faith that god will do something he will you just have to have faith. If you ever want to talk to me I have a e-mail adress you can use it as much as you like it is fun2run2001@yahoo.com remember you just have to have faith. god bless Yvette
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